Sunday, July 23, 2006

Explora Kids Science Museum (Experiments in Extreme Blowdrying and Bubble Making)

The vacation is going, well, ok. Yesterday, frankly, was a bit of a cluster fuck. I spent a lot of the day in tears, with a raging nauseous headache. Just my usual of trying to feel other people's feelings for them and/or with them, and getting my feelings hurt by inventing other people's feelings in my head. Dur.

Luckily, I've come far enough to be at least honest about it, and think I resolved most of the shit last night. I'll post about this abstract crap in more detail once I have a little perspective on it.

Today's best thing about being a mom:

Swimming together--her wet little cheek pressed against mine doing mermaid spins in the water.

Today's worst thing about being a mom:

Taking my personal shit out on her, then realizing I've been taking my personal shit out on her, then feeling absolutely terrible about it.


patrice said...

love the pictures. sorry about your day. I have days like that too. it's awful. don't beat yourself up too much - you're still a better mother than most, because you recognize things that other people wouldn't care about. thinking of you and wishing to give you a hug.

lonna said...

I love the pictures too. The museum looks really fun.

I hate when I take my shit out on Dermot. It's when I feel my lowest. So I can totally empathize. The important thing to remember is that everyone does it, and like Patrice says, it's the not wanting to do it that makes you a good mother.

Wendy said...

Great pictures. Sorry about the angst. Feeling too much is still better than feeling too little, IMHO.

NME said...

LOVE the air pictures. SO fun.

I hope the family drama passed quickly and now you are having constant nonstop fun. I mean it - no stopping that fun. You think it might let up for one second, but no. There it is. More fun than you can shake a stick at.

~A~ said...

I want to do that bubble and air stuff.

I get cracky bitchy too when my world falls apart and in turn it comes crashing on the kids. (((HUGS))) don't feel to bad, we all have our human moments.